I feel like shit. what life is this!! should i be happy or sad? today is the day of immense happiness.. the greatest pleasure .. it should be actually... but again the sadness as usual always over powers a person's happiness. why is it so? why is the emotions so unfair?? shouldn't it be the other way round ? life would have been so much easier had had it been that way. but no .. world has its own rules and its most well guided by human emotions. and that's the beast. emotions. you don't have control over them and they have full control over you .. they don't ?? u wanna say that?? well test yourself or would say life has been good to you ... damn lucky !!!
well testing yourself on this point wont be that easy. it should be a day/time where you have the reasons/logic and you do feel Both the emotions strongly. and you will feel yourself how badly the sadness over powers the happiness. Damn !! I tell you it hurts.. it hurts you bad...
Note : today my niece was born. today is her First Birthday! She is the first one from our next generation in our Family. She will be the eldest down the line. :) 10 days from now it will be the First Death Anniversary of my Sister : her mom.
Monday, February 22
Tuesday, February 16
Gurgaon !
I never liked Delhi - ncr or whatever ! Gunjan once had asked me where i would like to settle.. i had replied " Anywhere in India but Delhi ". And as always .. life has a very different plan for you.
Ever since Gunjan joined Jindal we knew of the high possibilities of us shifting to Delhi. Me not at all excited about it but yes trying to accept the fact ! Things didnt go very well .. just when papa mummy came closer to Raigarh we got transfered to "Gurgaon". Things changed so much. The small township in Raigarh had LIFE.. Gurgaon didnt have it a bit. I name this place as A Palace on a Desert. It really is !! A whole month went by me staying in the flat all alone.. waiting for Gunjan to return from office in the evening. hardly ever made lunch. My life was on Maggi or the left over of the dinner made the day before. Freelancing work helped to kill time. but it was not enough to kill boredom .. to kill the eagerness to see a human face. The society we shifted to made things worse. Being a new one, hardly any flat owners/tenants have shifted : which gave me the option to live alone in the floor. no one to talk to : no face to see. The visit of the maid used to be at 730-830am. This didnt help either. i needed someone to talk to from 1030am-630pm. But ... phew !
Dec-Jan'10 went by in its own pace. And of course Life had good plans for me too ! I cracked the first interview i gave and got a good package. Me getting recruited in the RnD Dept. served as the cherry on top of the cake. I couldnot ask for more! Life is so good from there on. The city gave me my first Home, a Job and peace in my life ! Should not i be thankful ? I have started to relish my Life in my own way ! So i feel its all in your mind ,how you see things. The environment does make a difference. The poor infrastructure of the city stops me from loving it.
And today i have started to like[no, not love] city : Gurgaon !
Ever since Gunjan joined Jindal we knew of the high possibilities of us shifting to Delhi. Me not at all excited about it but yes trying to accept the fact ! Things didnt go very well .. just when papa mummy came closer to Raigarh we got transfered to "Gurgaon". Things changed so much. The small township in Raigarh had LIFE.. Gurgaon didnt have it a bit. I name this place as A Palace on a Desert. It really is !! A whole month went by me staying in the flat all alone.. waiting for Gunjan to return from office in the evening. hardly ever made lunch. My life was on Maggi or the left over of the dinner made the day before. Freelancing work helped to kill time. but it was not enough to kill boredom .. to kill the eagerness to see a human face. The society we shifted to made things worse. Being a new one, hardly any flat owners/tenants have shifted : which gave me the option to live alone in the floor. no one to talk to : no face to see. The visit of the maid used to be at 730-830am. This didnt help either. i needed someone to talk to from 1030am-630pm. But ... phew !
Dec-Jan'10 went by in its own pace. And of course Life had good plans for me too ! I cracked the first interview i gave and got a good package. Me getting recruited in the RnD Dept. served as the cherry on top of the cake. I couldnot ask for more! Life is so good from there on. The city gave me my first Home, a Job and peace in my life ! Should not i be thankful ? I have started to relish my Life in my own way ! So i feel its all in your mind ,how you see things. The environment does make a difference. The poor infrastructure of the city stops me from loving it.
And today i have started to like[no, not love] city : Gurgaon !
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